by Hector Huezo

Un-fuckin’-believable…
This bat shit crazy broad is here.
This, THIS store, is MY safe haven.
It’s my sanctuary, my “fortress of solitude” amongst books in bulk & overpriced pig-swill coffee. Fuck, I’m upset but at the very least I’ve got about 15 yards between us.
Right, let me explain..
On a particularly depressing Sunday afternoon, I decided to go to B&N & just park my ass down & read. A cute red head nursing student caught my eye, college kids were loudly attempting to study & there I was… sitting amidst the revelry of life, trying to forget about the past.
I was trying to read something lighthearted– Jim Norton’s “I Hate Everyone” (screw Catcher in the Rye, everyone should read THIS book) when a middle-aged pudgy woman asked if I’d mind watching her belongings while she went to the bathroom. Trying a feeble attempt to be my charming self I answered “Sure, but it’ll cost you $5″, she smiled & said I was witty & then instantly feeling uncomfortable I said I didn’t mind watching her things, hoping she’d get the hint that I just wanted to read. Well, she didn’t.
She then started asking me a bunch of questions: where am I from,
what do I do, what’s my nationality, then started getting too
personal; am I married, am I seeing anyone, etc…
I vaguely answered a few of her questions, but really just wanted to be left alone. She introduced herself as Terry, who upon initial contact with this person, resembled to be seemingly normal. She was about 5′ 0″, I’m guessing brown hair, a body which suggested her best friends were Ben & Jerry.
Within the first 5 minutes of our conversation I discovered that she:
was divorced but had no children,
she was taking care of her nieces & nephews as her sister was taking care of her brother in law due to having brain surgery,
she was going for her PhD in psychology (red flag 1),
her boyfriend had recently dumped her after declaring he was bi-sexual (red flag 2),
& she was ultimately dismayed at Latin culture in general,
particularly it’s youth. Ummmmmmm… k.
I know I talk a lot of trash & have this finger pointed at the world like it owes me something, but deep down I do try to be as courteous as humanly possible, so I listened with feigned politeness & attentiveness to this woman whom I can tell had some serious issues going on. There even came a point in which as she was speaking to me, I literally turned my head to my book & just started reading as she continued to yammer on & on & on about some insipid conversation which I cared nothing about. I spotted one of the cafe workers with whom I’m friendly with & gave her this look that said “I’m figuratively Jodie Foster being mentally raped by Theresa’s group of drunk men in The Accused, PLEASE HELLLLLLLP me!!!!!!!”, but she didn’t get my look & just continued to roll thegarbage out of the store.
Fuck.
I gave this woman as much courtesy as I possibly could, but listening to her go on & on & on was the equivalent of slamming my own testicles repeatedly by a car door. And then this piece of conversation occurred:
“Could I ask you a question?”,
“Well, nothing’s stopped you in the past 37 minutes so go for it…”,
“Do I look like I suffer from bi-polar disorder?”,
“Yes. Yes, you bat shit crazy cooze, you are fucking insane. I would rather walk through Newark with a sign that reads ‘Fuck Obama, Michael Alexander rules’ than listen to your ramblings. You weren’t given children for a reason because God didn’t wanna fuck this planet up anymore than it already is with your progeny. Please do yourself a favor & develop ALS (Stephen Hawking’s disease) & shut up you Cuban mass of NUISANCE.”
Now of COURSE I didn’t say that. I think I mumbled something to the effect,
“Mm? What? Bi-polar? No, you look as normal as most.” (I’m such a pussy. Why God even gave me a penis
is beyond me sometimes)
Now that question didn’t bother as much as the next one…
“You have a lot of female friends, right?”,
“I suppose as much as most males do”,
“Well, would you like another
female friend?”,
“Uh.. sure… I guess”. She then proceeded to give me her phone number.
What the fuck??? Hey cute red head nursing student…. IT SHOULD’VE BEEN YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I proceeded to go to the bathroom a few times because I had to get away from her, & I also had more cigarettes within a an hour’s time than I care to count.
By about 7:15 I couldn’t take it anymore & decided to finally leave. So, with little fanfare, I politely said “goodbye” & good riddance,” hoping I’d never see her again.
I got in my truck, deleted her number & suddenly didn’t mind so much that I’m alone for the moment. If this is the insanity out there waiting for a guy like me, then ramming my testicles in my car door doesn’t seem so bad for the moment.
A few weeks later, I’m back at B&N. I’m reading “God Hates Us All” by Hank Moody . The usual motley crew of assorted people are here; students, perverts, nuisances, etc… until this one manatee catches my eye.
Have you ever noticed how some fat girls talk? It’s almost as if the fat from their bellies crept up from their cow udders & lodged it’s way to their throat. I’m currently privy to this phenomena which I like to call “thick throat”, wherein a portly-sized Asian girl raised by Pokemon & Ramen noodles whom I’ve dubbed
So-Phat, is discussing physics (or Bon Appetite magazine, who fucking knows) with some dude who’d rather be watching a football game, I’m sure. Her voice is overpowering the guy’s & it sounds like she’s congested with fat, animal fat, or the contents of KFC’s Family Fun Bucket; I can’t really tell.
Now, the moments in which she’s quiet I’m thinking she’s either– GOD FORBID– suffered a coronary,
fallen asleep,
or someone’s placed a suckling pig replete with a baked apple in it’s mouth for her to feast on.
B&N’s certainly full of it’s wayward oddities;
there’s the somewhat disturbing red faced white guy who’s changed tables at least 3 times & whom I’m pretty sure is either grading papers, or
writing a manifesto, neither would surprise me.
There’s also the self-described “frump-a-lump” ugly duckling who admits she’s not a glamorina, but has no problem dishing out a healthy slice of
criticism at women in fashions advertisements.
There’s also the creepy-uncle looking guy who keeps eyeing the no doubt in high school girls “studying” at the counter tables. In particular, the one in the green & white cheerleader outfit.
Hmm… wait…
onsecond thought… he may be on to something here.
Oh wait, Megan’s Law is still in effect so let me shut up.
Well, So Phat & Huggy Bear are leaving, and I’m seeing the Oriental wildebeest take her lazy strides, shuffling her feet in sandals,down the aisle to the exit.
Ok, what the egg roll’s up with Asian girls not being able to walk like a normal human being? Instead o factually lifting their feet & planting said feet heel to ball onto floor, they just shuffle their feet as if they’re mopping the floor with the bandages used to bind their feet. Oh… maybe that’s it.
Anyway, I’m glad I can enjoy some silence without listening to her mucous coated throat box as it made me wanna wretch my lukewarm spinach & feta stuffed pretzel right here on this pea soup green table, but at least her Mt. Fuji sized heftiness moved & gave way to two good looking girls talking about some vacuous bullshit like ballet flats, the new Twilight movie or doing fun weekend activities like getting a hysterectomy.
There’s a guy to their left who is probably thinking what I’m thinking… no, not THAT, but a bloody, brutal, violent, ritualistic killing might make this night worth it.
Well, that & the cute high school chick in the cheerleader outfit trying to spell out my name using her pom-pom’s, but given the fact that today’s MTV, iPod & Blackberry ingesting spoiled youth have trouble putting a cohesive sentence together, I’m willing to wager she wouldn’t get past the “c” in my name, give
up, & spell “cat” instead.
Gimme a C! Gimme a U! Gimme an N!
I think we know where this is going.
I go back to reading “God’s Hates Us All” & am just enthralled by the story. I then want to stick my hands in a cage full of violently hungry wolverines for not writing this story first.
I give my eyes a rest for a second & who do I see coming my way but—
Theresa….
AW, FOR FUCK’S SAKES!
I politely say hello as she makes her way behind me to the counter to order her cup of coffee. The entire cafe is pretty much empty as it’s now 10 p.m. at night, sothere’s an excellent chance this mouthy waste of skin will weasel her way next to me & begin yet another inane conversation. I’ve hadabout enough of this, so with the skill of a ninja I gather up my belongings & stealthily leave the store like a guy leaving a girl with no birth control; you run to the hills & pray you don’t get caught while making your exit.
I make my way to my truck & light a cigarette.
I tend to feel awful for thinking & saying & even writing the things I do because sometimes I feel I lack a filter.
I had that filter with someone who meant the world to me, but alas she saw the light & moved on to bigger & better & brighter things. Maybe this woman was feeling a different level of loneliness as I’ve felt. Maybe she just wanted to reach out to someone the way I sometimes initiate conversations with complete strangers hoping to find some sort of connection & perhaps, maybe, forget about her pain for a while.
Maybe I was the last vestige of a friend long gone, long lost, long forgotten & she was trying to reclaim that?
Not my fuckin’ problem lady.
I hope a shark eats you on your raft
en route back to Cuba.
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